living ghosts of a life that could have been.

(Title: In Another Lifetime by Zoe Sky Jordan/Kyler England) ⋆⋆⋆ Everything I own is boxed up. Again. That’s nothing new to me. What’s different is this is the first place I’ve moved out of where it wasn’t my choice. “Leave before you’re left” was kind of my motto for the first decade of my adult life. When […]

we are too grown up & understand too much.

(Song lyrics in title probably translated wrong, but I did my best.) ⋆⋆⋆ I’m feeling conflicted about religion lately. Despite all the prayers that have been supposedly coming my way for months, the last apartment on my list of possibilities does not look promising, and I need a home by Monday. Now, I’ve read A Fault […]

It’s all in your head.

I’m still going through shitty things, so why not write about shitty things? But I’m tired of talking about apartments and how none of them will rent to me because I have bad credit and an 8 year old misdemeanor on my record. Times like these mean anxiety has been a constant companion. My only […]

There are much worse games to play.

(Quote from The Hunger Games/Mockingjay, of course.) ⋆⋆⋆ In the above mentioned book, we find our main character making a list of every kind thing she’s seen people do when she’s so haunted by PTSD that she can’t function. Well, I don’t have PTSD, but I’m pretty bad at functioning too. I was inspired by that […]

9 days in Trump’s America

I posted on Facebook, “Does anyone else feel like we’re in the prequel to a dystopian YA novel?” I hope my district ends up being the privileged one. My (foreign) internet friends are trying to convince me to leave the country. I’m not Muslim. I was born here. I’m protestant and white. But I think […]

My brain did a shitty thing.

Yeah, I’m not proud of myself. Last Monday, I went to a college youth group meeting. I’m far more of a skeptic than most people there, but hey, free food, and sometimes people say hi to me. Real life social interaction. There’s this guy there who has some kind of disability — probably autism. When he […]

✽ I may be down, but I’m not dead. ✽

(Title from “Hope In Front Of Me” by Danny Gokey, my favorite Christian song.) ✮✮✮ I work best at night. (It’s 1:35 A.M. right now and I’m really glad I work second shift.) I’m also really good at feeling accomplished when I’ve actually done nothing. I should be worried about adult things like building a savings account, […]