“A stone of transformation, Labradorite (also known as Spectrolite)
is a useful companion through change, imparting strength and perseverance…
Powerful in revealing the truth behind illusions, Labradorite (Spectrolite)
banishes fears and insecurities, and strengthens faith in the self
and trust in the universe. It stimulates the imagination and calms an overactive mind,
developing enthusiasm and new ideas.”
Because I’ve always had hipster tendencies, I liked gemstones before Steven Universe was cool. Spectrolite, also known as labradorite, is primarily mined in Finland, where my family came from. My mother, who immigrated to the US in the 60s, had only one child. I am her legacy.
Enough about rocks. This little piece of the internet is about me.
I am 27, though my brain would say it hasn’t aged in a good 10 years. I’m an angsty kid in a body all grown up. Though I have had many houses, I am still searching for home.
I spent the first eight years of my adult life receiving SSI for panic disorder and agoraphobia. At 18, I was nearly housebound. Somehow, through pure luck or some kind of miracle, I now work a full-time job at a jersey shop, despite being completely unmedicated. I also have been diagnosed with depression and borderline personality disorder, which means I am one. hot. mess.
Despite living 27 years of suck, I haven’t given up yet. I dream of better days. Friends come and go and family goes faster, but hope is the only thing that remains constant through the troubles.